HEAVENSREEF

It’s a given that no matter how hard we try to do things right or say the right thing, in our own strength, we will fail.  So the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak!  And it’s a given that we as human beings doubt, we doubt GOD and HIS goodness for us.  We forget HE is with us always and that HE never leaves us. And it is important that we don’t take shortcuts.   GOD is doing within us what takes a lifetime of living and learning.  HIS schoolroom is like none other.

Yesterday I had another mammogram due to the fact that when you are diagnosed with breast cancer and then receive treatment, your scans come regularly and are important.  So they did the scan, but then they required more pics on my other side, the cancer free side including an ultrasound.  I had to wait in-between all of this and that is where I had an epic fail, because I doubted and the fear overtook me.  It’s funny how everything you think you know with all your heart just goes right out the window when circumstances are beyond your control.   I have never liked tests whether they were for school, skating, or physical tests. 

JOSHUA 1: 9  “DO NOT BE FRIGHTENED OR DISMAYED FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD IS WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO.”

I don’t like it when fear overtakes me, because then, where is my faith?  A dear Christian friend texted me as I was waiting (GOD’S timing) and she said: “let me wait with you.”  She calmed me down, because she is a breast cancer survivor herself and she knew what to say to me in that moment.  She is a veteran of  17 years being cancer free and has gone through much.

GOD works that way, where HE exposes to us where we are weak.  HE is always working on us and through us……..so we will see…….HIM.

But back to my day yesterday.  Everything turned out fine!  The right side (not the cancer side) just had a cyst and the technician told me that with cancer patients they are extra careful in examining the films.  I was good to go and now I can wait a year for my next scan.

For all those pink Sisters out there……..there is such a thing as scan anxiety.  I have read about it.  But knowing myself I still have to ask myself in that moment where was my faith?  When I reached the car I broke down into tears and asked GOD to forgive me, but I also praised HIM all the way home that I was alright and cancer free.  What this has taught me, is that my mind knows what it knows, but the spirit knows more and we have to remind ourselves over and over and over again that GOD is with us and never leaves us……..ever.

ISAIAH 43: 5   “FEAR NOT, FOR I AM WITH YOU.”

The next time I am fearful, I need to remember and look at the Sovereign LORD of all problems rather than the problem at hand.  HE is the problem solver and I need to remind myself of it.  HE is my strength and courage when I feel faint of heart.  HE is the ROCK on which I stand.

The true lesson in all of this is how we need to remind ourselves and remember GOD’S word to us.  HIS character never changes and if HE says HE will abide with us, then we need to abide with HIM with every ounce of our being and trust HIS provision for us! The enemy wants us to be fearful.  GOD wants us to fear HIM (in a good way of course).  I pray today, you are not living in fear because your faith in CHRIST WILL overcome it!  Keep your eyes on the SHEPHERD!

LUKE 12:  32  “FEAR NOT, LITTLE FLOCK, FOR IT IS YOUR FATHER’S GOOD PLEASURE TO GIVE YOU THE KINGDOM.”