HEAVENSREEF

In the past and sometimes even now, I tend to think I need to give GOD only my best.  My best words and actions and self.  But then it happens because life happens and I am overwhelmed with problems and worries.

This past year for our family has not been easy.  Cancer hitting twice in the same family is not easy.  And through it all I have come to a realization that I am being broken, over and over.   My heart is broken and I have had to say that out loud many times.  I feel like people look at me and are glad they aren’t me just because of what I am going through.

And truly, no one knows what we are going through, the depth of it, except GOD!  Thank GOD for GOD!  Oh, I don’t honestly know what I would do without HIS love, wisdom and strength. 

SURRENDER YOUR SOUL AND WATCH GOD WORK.

It’s that whole surrender thing, stop fighting so hard, because in reality, you already have the FATHER’S heart.  Those words are from a song I have heard recently.  And they comfort me.  It’s a comfort knowing that I can give GOD my best, but HE wants all the broken too!!

JEREMIAH 31: 25  “FOR I WILL SATISFY THE WEARY SOUL, AND EVERY LANGUISHING SOUL I WILL REPLENISH.”

Our SAVIOR satisfies and replenishes us in ways no one else can and in ways none of this world can.  And when you are broken, you need this love and grace, and you need mending too.

IN OUR BREAKING THERE IS REMAKING!

There is remaking so we can bring our best…….again.  Sometimes we think we are being our best, when GOD says HIS way is the best.

Try as we might, we fail over and over and miserably at that too.  But knowing and learning and submitting to HIS way gives us a best that is beyond ourselves.  HIS way becomes our only way whether it is broken or moving forward or mended in heart and soul. 

Right now for me, I feel as if I am in the mending period.  For how do you live with knowing your husband has an incurable cancer?  And how do I move forward, GOD’S best forward, not mine?

I used to think I could only give GOD my best on those good days.  But now I know HE wants all of me, my best and my broken too because…….

PSALM 39: 5  “INDEED, YOU HAVE MADE MY DAYS AS HANDBREADTHS, AND MY AGE IS AS NOTHING BEFORE YOU; CERTAINLY EVERY MAN AT HIS BEST STATE IS BUT VAPOR.”

Doesn’t matter how good we are, doesn’t matter how bad……..GOD wants all of us, our hearts souls and minds.  HE knows us down deep and HE died for us, in spite of ourselves.  And because of this, HIS dying on the CROSS, let us submit all to HIM, praise HIM and worship HIM……LORD, thank YOU for loving us this much!  THANK YOU for the best and the broken too!

1 JOHN 4: 10  “IN THIS IS LOVE, NOT THAT WE LOVED GOD, BUT THAT HE LOVED US AND SENT HIS SON TO BE THE PROPITIATION FOR OUR SINS.”